This morning I was walking to work and looking at all the townhouses on 9th street and thought, "I love my commute to work. It makes me so happy. I'm so lucky to live where I live". Then I remembered how I felt when I first heard that LaLa found an apartment in the East Village and I felt badly. Why did I waste so much energy hating on the fact that our new place wasn't in the West Village when, at the end of the day, I now love the new hood?
I don't think this epiphany would have happened had I not seen EAT, PRAY, LOVE last night. I was fo rizzle when I said that the movie changed my life (just like the book did).
Yesterday morning, I was annoyed that a friend of mine had took it upon himself to invite someone to a dinner I had organized without asking me if I minded. As soon as I found out, I fired off a rant of an email to him. Later in the day, I realized how I had overreacted and apologized. Today, I'm wondering why I got so heated to begin with?
I think it all stems from life in NYC. It's far too easy to be negative and angry here. I think it's the nature of the people who live in this bustling metropolis. It's not a good thing. EAT, PRAY, LOVE made me remember not to sweat all the small stuff. Sometimes, it's good to just appreciate what you have, who you have in your life and who you are. I spend so much time thinking about all the things that I want, being upset with people I feel aren't nice to me, how I'd be happier if my life were different.. when, at the end of the day, don't I have a lot of things? isn't my life pretty grand? don't I have plenty of other people in my life who ARE nice to me?
Three years ago, when I left NYC for a spell, I did appreciate all these things. Now that I'm permanently back, I have to maintain this perspective. It won't be easy and I'm sure I'll fly off the handle today about something trivial or covet something inappropriately.. and that's okay... Just as long as I remember to take a moment to breathe and appreciate that the life I have is more than swell. I am lucky so I need to quit f*cking complaining.
BREAKFAST: Fage with Strawberry
SNACK: Lay's Potato Chips
LUNCH: Arugula Salad with Morning Star Farms Spicy Black Bean Burger
DINNER: Raw ear of sweet corn